-« ãĻåń »

dao_kia @ 2005-01-29T12:02:00

2005-01-29T04:00:57Z

Your EQ is

120

50 or less: Thanks for answering honestly. Now get yourself a shrink, quick!

51-70: When it comes to understanding human emotions, you'd have better luck understanding Chinese.

71-90: You've got more emotional intelligence than the average frat boy. Barely.

91-110: You're average. It's easy to predict how you'll react to things. But anyone could have guessed that.

111-130: You usually have it going on emotionally, but roadblocks tend to land you on your butt.

131-150: You are remarkable when it comes to relating with others. Only the biggest losers get under your skin.

150+: Two possibilities - you've either out "Dr. Phil-ed" Dr. Phil... or you're a dirty liar.

What's Your EQ (Emotional Intelligence Quotient)?

dao_kia @ 2004-12-16T00:23:00

2004-12-15T16:22:53Z

when nothing seems to be going as you planned, it means something big is planned for you.. take it, challenge yourself.

a rope trying to tie..

2004-10-29T11:25:08Z

cant you people like wake up your fucking ideas? ah, whoever it is. you guys know it. yeah if you all cant get things right and understand stuffs then just either shut that fucking ideas you have and stop the fucking childish stuffs you're doing or just simply wake up! ah well. thats just about how much i'm gonna get pissed by you people, you guys arent worth that much of my energy and time. ok? =)

alright, i dont know what the fuck. i dont know whether it's worth all these. before then, we had fun and we all were good.. then things changed, almost totally. maybe it's just you , or maybe just purely me. but fuck care. wth? i dont understand why some people does get it, and some just refuse to. fucked up attitude and slacking businesses is all i get in exchange. it isnt easy, i admit. but that doesnt equals to me giving up.. sigh i know i cant, and it just isnt me too to give up halfway. i'm all for the team, i was a betting material.. and i just wanna win it for whoever placed me. are you people for the team too? are you people doing enough yourself? yeah you guys cant judge me, please. do you know me well enough? do you understand me? do you know what am i like? say yes to these three questions and prove yourself right, then judge me.

15 guys, 9 girls..
make it, or just simply break it.

read, then try and understand.
btw, sorry for the foul mood.

dao_kia @ 2004-09-01T13:01:00

2004-09-01T05:01:19Z

the song just keeps playing and playing.. in my mind, on the speaker.

翻着我们的照片想念若隐若现
去年的冬天我们笑得很甜
看着你哭泣的脸对着我说再见
来不及听见你已走得很远
也许你已经放弃我也许已经很难回头
我知道自己错过请再给我一个理由
说你不爱我就算是我不懂能不能原谅我
请不要把分手当作你的请求
我知道坚持要走是你受伤的藉口
请你回头我会陪你一直走到最后
就算没有结果我也能够随
我知道你的痛是我给的承诺
你说给过我纵容沉默是因为包容
如果要走请你记得我如果难过请你忘了我

dao_kia @ 2004-08-16T23:46:00

2004-08-16T15:46:48Z

the team belongs to everyone.

team, it means without any one of us, it wont exist anymore.
since i'm given the task to lead and serve the team,
its my responsibility to pull the team together when it's falling..
doing everything, anything that i can.

-=team dragonboat '04=-

SeaSports Club Farewell Night 2004

2004-08-14T16:26:21Z

yup that happened last evening..
a very wonderful evening filled with almost all sorts of feelings one can think of, for me at least, the feelings were mixed.

the night started with a messy beginning.. especially when we all first stepped in to the lounge, everyone were rushing to start with their preparation work and also take a good look at the place where their evening's gonna be spent. yup there were lotsa commotion around.. we were all busy rehearsing our performances, doing up the place nicely, checking and making sure everything is in place and ready..
by 7pm or so, the teachers and seniors finally step foot into the lounge, all dressed up to their best.. especially hanjin and elaine, who eventually won the best-dressed awards.. all went well and the night was surely filled with lotsa fun and laugher, even for people like us who havent got anything proper to eat. and guess what? me tongpui gordon and benedict also put up a short and clumsy dance performance which i thought i did rather badly.. haha, but it was fun and nice to see the seniors and teachers all tickled by the dance.. LADY MARMALADE. urgh. ah well, it'll only be for that night.. THAT night. haha i promise. -_- hmmmmm, yeah i guess everyone had such lots of fun like i did.

then come the moment everyone had waited for, the announcement of the 16th batch of exco-committee.. and yes, i got in. but i had mixed feelings when my name was announced. should i be happy? yeah i got the post that i ran for. or should i worry and be disheartened? yeah cuz i havent gotten the entire team's support. thats where i got the first task for myself: to earn respect and gain the support of the team. i know thats gonna be real tough, especially in the case of the guys. but i've decided that the two words "give up" shall not ever appear across my mind, no matter when or how hard it's gonna be. and thanks, for those that have encouraged and shown me support, i'll give my best and not let any of you down. there's probably not much that i can show to prove my words.. but all i can give to you guys now is a promise. =)

for a special someone.

2004-08-09T16:49:33Z

thanks for being one of the greatest chapter in my life, you really made a difference- at least i know i'm different after that chapter we spent almost all of our time together. thanks for all the joy, sorrows and everything you've given me, i'll always remember them. =) it's really been wonderful that we've at least crossed our paths in life.. and now that you've moved on, i'm really glad for you and hope everything will be even better for you. you were happy, then sad, i hope now you'll be happier than you've ever been.

all the best and take care always..

dao_kia @ 2004-07-17T00:18:00

2004-07-16T16:18:45Z

What's behind those eyes? (what type of eye do you have..8 outcomes!)
brought to you by Quizilla

dao_kia @ 2004-07-17T00:11:00

2004-07-16T16:12:02Z

hmmmm
yeah been a really long time since i last update.. didnt even realise till just now.. haha...
let me see whats there to update about..

oh yup, got back my CT results some time ago.. did pretty badly but ah well, i kinda expected it since i didnt study much for it. well i guess most importantly is that i realise its actually time to start working for my promos at the end of the year; thats whats important. hmmm, yeah and cuz of that my civics tutor called up the whole class to ask the parents of wanna go to the parent-teacher meeting anot. -sian- then two nights ago i quarrelled with my mum over this, sigh. what the hell is wrong with everything? grrr... yea i just keep asking myself but nothing seems to come outta it.. and i've been putting in so much efforts to catch up on what i've missed out for the work that are done and over but she just insists that i never did any work. sigh alright, enough about this.

hmmm and our class got in for both 12-men and 24-mixed for the sea carnival! woohoo.. haha, lets hope we can win something from this. let me see... pretty much unsure about the 24-mixed team but i'm holding quite high expectations for the 12-men though.. hope we can go for the champion for that race.. =) yeah and before that.. my back's still giving me problems, i'm just praying it wont stop me from rowing on that day itself... lol gotta pray real hard cuz it seems to be getting from bad to worse. and my mum doesnt remember, i guess. i'll see how, havent been getting allowance so i cant even see a doctor myself. lets hope it isnt anything seriouss.. heh.

and i just remembered something.. anyone who reads this and got any lobangs for any jobs that i can work during the weekends please let me know yea?

ya how come like so much people around me are unhappy or bothered huh..? hmmm, cheer up no matter whats bothering you and making you sad eh? just look on the bright side and everything will seem better and easier to go through.. its in the mind! dont think about unhappy stuffs and work on others, i'm sure things will improve and you can smile again.. lol. i can do better telling people to cheer up, not myself. =)

= we gotta live everyday as if it is the last day of life then we will cherish the things and people we've got around us =

dao_kia @ 2004-06-25T00:08:00

2004-06-24T16:09:33Z

So spread your wings and fly away
For I can not fulfill your dream
But if you should fall one day
I'll guide you and be that little stream

我会学着放弃你是因为我太爱你 ..

2004-06-11T10:41:14Z

珍惜身旁的每一ㄍ人,不要等到失去了
才瞭解到遺憾.和後悔是如此的痛苦....

~※→因為愛你.所以放手還你自由←※~

~※→因為愛你.所以不再讓你困擾←※~

~※→因為愛你.所以寧願自己難過←※~

~※→因為愛你.所以我逼自己離開←※~

如果我還一直深愛著你...你是否還會待在我身邊?
如果我還一直在乎著你...你是否會再多看我一眼?
是否我已不存在了...你才感覺的到我的離開?

dao_kia @ 2004-06-08T20:39:00

2004-06-08T12:39:32Z

just got back from training..
been having intensive trainings these days.. two times a day..
=S tired.. very tired.
sigh how've you been.
though training's been so tough and taxing.. somehow you've always been thought of, and i miss you still.

nationals will be this coming sunday.. nearing and really so close.
tomorrow would be our last training of all, and we'll all be getting ready for competitions on sunday already..
and straight after that the whole seasports club will be rushing to the train station and head for malaysia..
and thats where we'll all be going through our LTC(Leadership training camp)
hmmm.. hope we'll all do well for nationals..
so much training.. so much hard work. just for this.
hai, if only you'd be there to watch. i know it's hard.. =\
nvm, i understand..

dao_kia @ 2004-06-05T17:02:00

2004-06-05T09:02:04Z

had a long talk with some friends today.. in fact for some days this group of us have been talking alot.. sigh.
hmm this friend's been having problems with a girl he likes.. and keeps asking us for help and stuffs..
then everything keeps coming back.. i was quiet again, for some time.
i still miss you.

then we told him to ask himself what he really wants.. if he really likes her..
i told him lotsa stuffs.. lots of them.
after much.. it just reminds me of the times i used to have crushes..
then how i came to know you through the camp..
then the time on the 158 bus..
and the question i asked you outside kallang mrt station.. how i wanted you to answer me..
all the times..
and how sad you were when you lost your wallet..
then one of the cards we took.. the one i gave you when you wanted it..
do you still keep it?

after that we had talks about ourselves, and they suddenly asked about me.
they knew something was with me all this while, in fact they knew i've been feeling down.. =\
ah well..
sigh.

-it is you.-
[46477968]

There is something that I see
In the way you look at me
There's a smile, thereâ€™s a truth
In your eyes

What an unexpected way
On this unexpected day
Could it be this is where I belong
It is you I have loved all along

There's no more mystery, it is finally clear to me
You're the home my heart searched for so long
And it is you I have loved all along

There were times I ran to hide
Afraid to show the other side
Alone in the night without you

But now I know just who you are
And I know you hold my heart
Finally this is where I belong
And it is you I have loved all along

There's no more mystery, it is finally clear to me
You're the home my heart searched for so long
It is you I have loved all along

Over and over Iâ€™m filled with emotion
Your love, it rushes through my veins
And I am filled with the sweetest devotion
As I look into your perfect face
There's no more a mystery, it is finally clear to me
You're the home my heart searched for so long
And it is you I have loved
It is you I have loved
It is you I have loved all along

dao_kia @ 2004-05-21T23:02:00

2004-05-21T15:02:36Z

sigh... nothing to do online...
asked bro to let me have the computer.. but dont really have an idea what i want with it..
guess i still hope to see you online..
even just knowing you're fine.. thats enough i think..
how'll i be fine again.
how can i be smiling like before? hmmm.

is there really a first time to everything?
it's the
first time i've fallen so hard.
first time in my life i ever regretted so much about something.
first time i miss anyone this much.
first time i felt so sad, and depressed.
maybe you went through more..
so maybe i shouldnt complain..
maybe it's just nothing when compared..
but it's just the first, and the hardest ever for me. at least for me it is.

why cant it be different for me.
why cant her pain be loaded onto mine.. then maybe she'll feel better.
why cant we choose the way we want things to work?
then maybe i can choose to know the truth, truth to everything.
even it's in exchange for half my lifetime, i know i'd rather have the truth.
than to live with bluffs. and lies.

if we could.
if we could do anything we want
if we could have hopes that come true and wishes that never fail..
i hope you're happy.
no matter how far you have walked from me,
i wish you happiness..
though if hopes and wishes really will come true, i know i'd ask for more.
more than me walking alone..
and you walking away,
...
to walk side by side on the same old road..

why..

2004-05-20T13:55:47Z

why do tears still fill my eyes so easily..
why...
just hope you're fine and alright.

dao_kia @ 2004-05-20T20:42:00

2004-05-20T12:42:17Z

Say it isn't so

Skies are dark it's time for rain
Final call you board the train
Heading for tomorrow
I wave goodbye to yesterdays
Wipe the tears you hide your face
Blinded by the sorrow

How can I be smiling like before
When baby, you don't love me anymore

Say it isn't so
Tell me you're not leaving
Say you changed your mind now
That I am only dreaming
That this is not goodbye
This is starting over
If you wanna know
I don't wanna let go
So say it isn't so

Ten to five atleast we tried
We're still alive but hope just died
As they close the door behind you
Whistle blows and tons of steel
Shake the ground beneath the wheels
As I wish I never found you

How can I be smiling when you're gone
Will I be strong enough to carry on

Miles and miles to go before I can say,
Before I can lay my love for you to sleep
Oh, darling oh
I got miles and miles to go
Before anyone will ever hear
Me laugh again

= every night i wake up from dreams so sweet, only to realise you are not around anymore..
leave me inside my dream. lock me up and throw away the key to release me..
cuz i hate to find you gone...
tears just fill my eyes, when i dont see you no more.. =

.a . porimse . taht . nedes . turst.

2004-05-17T07:15:44Z

"I Promise"
Will I always be there for you?
When you need someone, Will I be that one you need?
Will I do all my best to, to protect you?
When the tears get near your eyes
Will I be the one that's by your side?
Will I be there when you call me in the middle of the night?
Will I keep the rain from falling down into your light?
I promise, I promise
I promise I will

Will I take tender tender care of you?
Take your darkest night and make it bright for you
Will I be there to make you strong and to lean on?
When this world has turned so cold
Will I be the one that's there to hold?

Will I be there when you call me in the middle of the night?
Will I keep the rain from falling down into your light?
I promise, I promise
I promise I will

Will I be there when you call me in the middle of the night?
Will I keep the rain from falling down into your light?
I promise, I promise
I promise I will

Yeah
And I love you more every day
And nothing will take that love away
When you need someone
I promise I'll be there for you (there for you)
I promise

Will I be there when you call me in the middle of the night?
Will I keep the rain from falling down into your light?
I promise, I promise
I promise I will

And I promise (and I promise)
I promise (oh I promise you)
I will be there when you call me (when you call me)
I promise (I promise)
I promise I will.

-=nothing.more.than.for.you.to.believe.me=-

melancholy. blahblahblah...

2004-05-14T15:15:50Z

what's life all about?
what are we living for and whats the aim of doing all that we are doing now?
sigh, just so not sure about anything anymore.
where do we end up when we reaches the end of our destination?
nothing can ever be perfect, nothing.
just like life isnt, if there was a way to make it perfect,
then we'll be able to turn back time and undo all the wrongs and mistakes..
all the things you never wanna do
and all that one learn from experiences could then be applied.
is there only one chance in doing everything?
is there only walking forward and not turning backwards?
even if it's a yes,
is there no way to walk on..?
walking the way you want to,
the manner you want it to be.

when you're thinking about someone,
is it always true that the same person would be at the other end thinking back at you?
or is it only a mere hope of a lonely soul. . .

will lies last forever?
i hope they dont. at least then i might know.
if those words were lies,
allow me to exchange half of my lifetime for the truth.

=46477968.. 6673 263 6673 3224 329..=

dao_kia @ 2004-05-12T00:18:00

2004-05-11T16:18:25Z

i wasnt sure what or how i felt anymore.
there wasnt a word to describe me like i am
but as i told you stuffs and wished you all the best, my eyes turned watery.
they teared.
and i knew how i felt.

remember what i said,
no more that word from you again
cuz if it must be said..
it should be from me to you.
you should know why
and i'm sure why.
listen to me even if you dont have to:
be the happy you i know.

.568464.968.259297.

"Say Goodnight.. wan an..
Close your eyes.. be quiet..
... I hope to stay..
And if you need somebody..
wo que ding wo hui zai, bu hui zou kai.. "

======================================

对不起我爱你

2004-05-11T12:05:55Z

没别的只想说对不起对不起我真的爱你
不管你会怎么想你怎么说也不会改变我的决定
你知道有时候感情事很难说很难说爱人或朋友
从前到现在我真的感觉要一想你我的心就发烧
想给你听我的心跳想你知道我睡的不好
喝水想着你搭车想着你阖眼闭眼间出现的全是你
我猜不到你的表情我等不到你的回应
不想难为你又不想放弃你决定告诉你对不起对不起我爱你
没别的只想说对不起怎么样我都会珍惜
不管你会怎么讲你怎么做也不会影响我的心情
你知道有时候男孩更难捉摸难捉摸爱人或朋友
现在到永远我真会感觉要一想你我的心就狂跳
我的模样记不记的牢情人卡有没有收到
读书想着你听歌想着你大地和蓝天出现的全是你
我才不管你的表情我才不理你回不回应
不想难为你又不想放弃你决定告诉你对不起对不起我爱你
你听一听我的心跳你看一看我睡的不好
喝水想着你搭车想着你阖眼闭眼间出现的全是你
我猜不到你的表情我等不到你的回应
不想难为你又不想放弃你决定告诉你对不起对不起我爱你

you know, you understand.. still?

2004-05-09T22:36:42Z

如果说了后悔是不是一切就能倒退回忆多么美
活着多么狼狈为什么这个世界总要叫人常伤悲
我不能了解也不想了解

你好吗想说这句话想看你的脸
我闭上眼默默地想念
你好吗想说这句话唯一的心愿
我闭上眼却以为你还在身边
是否远方的夜晚也有相似的街角
有个熟悉的身影让你想起我
记忆在寂寞的夜空回到了从前
我相信　坚强勇敢的你已学会一个人生活
你好吗挣扎和思念都怕你听见
你好吗

dao_kia @ 2004-05-09T02:00:00

2004-05-08T18:00:49Z

its hard to start a new chapter again after one had closed..
much harder than one can imagine...
cuz its not all up to yourself, theres little a single person's power can do..
especially writing a beautiful one,
no story can be perfect with only one main character in it.
can it?
no.
dull, boring and lonesome would probably describe the story well.

cherish.
cuz you never know when you're gonna regret not doing that.
so cherish.

dao_kia @ 2004-05-06T23:42:00

2004-05-06T15:42:01Z

=(

if only i could turn back time.. then i'll not make the mistakes i ever did..
if only i could turn back time.. i'll cherish every moments i could ever spend with you..
if only i could turn back time.. i'll avoid every thing i ever did to make you sad..
if only i could turn back time.. i'll not do stuffs i ever did to make you shed a tear that contained sadness..
if only i could turn back time.. i'll make sure you're happy every minutes every seconds we're together..
if only i could turn back time.. i'll want no promises to be broken again..
if only i could turn back time.. i'll make sure things dont end up the way they are right now..
if only i could turn back time.. i'll never let the what happened 133 days ago happen..

.. but i am no superman, i have no time-machine,
i just wanna start a new chapter..

= 663 263 6659 =

xiang hui dao guo qu... rang gu shi ju xu...

2004-05-05T13:26:06Z

another day has passed..
had training today... was very tiring.. a slip of my pedal cut off a piece of skin from my thumb.
painful, yet not as painful.
havent spoke much in school these days, everyone found it weird and thought i was ill.. *hai* dont know why.. i've lost the smile i used to try and put on, its hard to put it on anymore..

all i have in my head now is all that we shared, like a video record player the memories kept playing and playing like tapes..
all i have kept in my pocket and brought along everywhere with me is the handphone pouch that you knitted for me.. you said it was the first thing you ever knitted..
all i have now in my eyes are all but tears..
all i wanna do is just to be able to write another chapter of our story with you, one that will never bear the words "the end"..

= no one will ever replace a single you in my heart =

dao_kia @ 2004-05-04T01:52:00

2004-05-03T18:17:26Z

i miss all the times..
you used to tell me i can always look for you when i have things to say..
that when troubles come upon me i can look you up and you'd share them with me..
you used to believe like i do..
that no matter what happens our fate wont end just so easily..
you used to say that no matter how hard things are, we will be able to withstand them..
that in any situation.. we'll be holding our hands together and fighting them down..
you told me you love the stars..
that you hope we will always have the chance to sit under them and be looking up all night together..
you love eating ice cream..
and that you'd bring me over the the Haagen Daz at Explanade to eat it with me..
you called me piggy.. actually i love it when you called me that..
that i always hoped you called me that..
you gave me your favourite bear.. and i saw mine at your place.. i was so so happy..
that i took pictures of your bear holding that photo frame with our baby photos in it.. hoping to have a chance to show it to you..
you cry alot.. but i never minded before.. not a single bit at all...
that i wish that i'm always there for you when you cry.. to dry your tears and make you smile again.. i hope i am the one..
you dont know how to take care of yourself properly..
that i always wanna be the one to take care of you when you're ill, pick you up when you fall.. and cook stuffs for you when you're sick..
you were always there when i needed somebody..
that even when i dont show it.. i wanna tell you i know how much you've put it for me.. how much you've done for me.. and i'm willing to do everything for you. everything..
you loved those songs..
that you used to ask me to sing them to you.. i was glad you liked it when i sing them to you when you told me you couldnt sleep at night.. i wanna tell you i didnt mind that at all..
you used to write a diary saying things you never got a chance to tell me.. i still have it with me..
that i started a personal diary for you some time ago too.. it says all the stuffs i had wanted to tell you but never got the chance to..
that i know its really a copycat thing to do.. but i'll just go on doing it until i can show it to you one day..
you used to trust me alot..
that you'd tell me everything little thing.. i never find it a trouble at all to listen.. in fact i loved talking to you.. be it you doing the talking or just me.. i really love your voice..
you were always hurt..
that i regret all the times i made you sad and disappointed you..
that i hated myself for making the person i love cry..
that i wish i really have the chance to start a new chapter of our story again.. all over again..

= not ready for goodbye =